Deland, FL

I'm kind of sick of saying, yup, still in Deland. Make that extremely sick. But it's the truth. I'm beginning to feel that we've been sucked into someone else's life and don't know how to get out. It's a little depressing. Karl's even been offered a job here--he could've started working today--and Paula, Danny's mom, found us a free spot to stay at the marina where she works. That would mean backtracking up to Jacksonville and then coming down the St. John's River, about 230 miles, which would take us about a week. Still, it's a very tempting prospect.

But not that tempting. I'm still more tempted by the crystal blue waters of the Caribbean. I almost typed Mediterranean, and I'm tempted by those too, and Australia, and New Zealand, and Thailand and all those other far away places that we'll never get to because we're simply too goshdarned lazy. Or that's how it feels right now.

I'm beginning to wonder if all of our obstacles and stumbling blocks are due to a severe lack of motivation. We can be motivated enough to pound away at a boat for a year, and motivated enough to cut the docklines (allegedly the hardest part) but give us the taste of a four-burner range, Tivo, and occasional hot showers, and I'm all done in.

As things stand now, we're trying to buy another computer online and have it shipped down the coast. But even that ordeal might take us several days, or up to another week. We've been here for another week already, when we planned to be here for a night. I've given up hope on us leaving quickly. It turns out that the one we bought online was dropped. It must've been severely, because it wrecked not only the logicboard but also the hard drive, which was half the value of the computer. Fairly ridiculous.

Still, I'm willing to trust eBay again. I guess. We really could have gotten our money back, if we hadn't thought the computer was somewhat salvageable. But I better go. Karl's hovering over my shoulder, with love, and I'm at the computer store pirating internet yet again. Thanks for all the encouraging comments. They really, really do help.